We’re sharing some personal hurdles and challenges that our mentors and teachers faced as they started practicing.
This week, iBme teacher Enrique Collazo breaks down one:
One of the humps that I’ve had to get over was this story that I had to sit for half an hour if I was going to meditate. Because whenever I sat with community—a class or on retreat—we were sitting for at least 30 minutes, so I thought to myself “oh, if I don’t have half an hour I shouldn’t sit.” And half an hour sometimes felt daunting when I was attempting to sit at home. What I came to realize is that although sitting for a long time is beneficial and ideal, anytime that I give to myself permission to land and just be—even if it’s only for five minutes—is so rare and precious in a day that’s filled with obsessing and planning and worrying, future tripping and dwelling on the past and thinking that same thought over and over and over.
True! Pausing for even a minute has good benefits and can be a somewhat revolutionary act in a time that celebrates being overstretched.
Sometimes I get that feeling that I’m rushing from here to there like I’m on a treadmill—the rat race that we get caught up in—staying “busy.” That’s what we say to the people when they ask us what were up to—”oh staying busy”, like it’s some good thing. Something to be proud of! Now I like to take my time and give myself permission to just be, even for 5 min, 12 years later into my practice. Just be. To be present for all the beauty life has to offer. And now when people ask me what I’m up to, I can tell them all the things that I’ve done, tasted, smelled, and the connections I’ve made. And I’d much rather talk that: what’s happening in this moment.